Yet Another Reason I Miss Her So Damn Much!

This last week has been a up and down emotional week. Of course it was Valentine’s Day. I believe I have mentioned before that it was not a big holiday for us but I sure miss her when it rolls around. I was fortunate in that she was just as happy to go to a fast food restaurant as opposed to some high dollar fancy schmancy joint. However, I really do miss going with her to those places.

However, one thing I really miss, is having her here to help me solve those gaps in history or details I have forgotten. Let me provide a little more context. Jennifer and I pretty much grew up together, so we had many of the same friends and experienced many of the same moments/events together. So remembering some of our life events was interesting. She would recall certain things I would not remember and vice versa. I miss being able to ask her, do you remember this event/incident and what do you remember about it?

Tonight I was having a dream and it involved people that we went to school with. There was a person in the dream (at this point, I cannot not even tell what the hell the dream was about) but I will be damned that I could not remember this one particular persons name. The funny thing was that it bothered me enough that I woke up. If she was here, I know I could provide details about the person and she would more than likely be able to tell me the persons name.

Now I would not be dumb enough to wake her up at 1:30 am to ask, but I know that when she woke up, she would be able to tell me. Talk about stupid shit. Well it was gnawing at my peanut brain enough that I actually got up and went and got one of high school year books and figured it out. It was a person that was year ahead of us in school, but I figured it out. However, after doing that I am now wide awake. So I am sure I will have a nap in my future tomorrow.

Sadly, this is not the first time and I am sure won’t be the last time that this type of thing has happened and it really tugs at my heart and makes my eyes water when I have moments like this. I was so blessed to have had a spouse who shared so much of my life with me. Now don’t get me wrong it would also be a curse, because she also knew stuff that if she had not grown up with me I could probably BS her about. She however, knew where the skeletons were buried as the old saying goes. However it was much more a blessing than a curse and something else that I just took for granted.

I got some news this week that Jennifer would have been very pleased about. Our niece Hannah has been asked by Montana Tech to be the Keynote speaker at Tech’s spring graduation. A honor that is well deserved. Hannah is the daughter of Jennifer’s brother Dave and his wife Pat. Dave like Jennifer passed away way to young. Hannah was very young when Dave passed. Anyway both Dave and Jennifer as well as their parents would have been so damned proud about this.

Hannah is now a physician specializing in Obstetrics and Gynecology oncology. Last summer, she finished her surgical residency at the University of Michigan and is now practicing in the Portland, Oregon area. In December she gave birth to her second child, so she completed her schooling while having two beautiful children. Her first child Alice, was the last baby that Jennifer got to see. She was so happy for Hannah and her husband Cody.

Well I really need to try and get back to sleep or my whole week will be screwed up. So enough for today. I solved the mystery so maybe I can get back to sleep.