Random Thoughts And Pain.

It is weird how random thoughts about Jennifer will just pop in my head. This morning I was in the shower and suddenly I was remembering her coloring in kids coloring books. It just popped into my head.

I used to tease her about this activity and always told her I was going to post her latest work on the refrigerator. For her it was a source of stress relief so I would not tease her too much about it, but I did tease her. Some of those memories popped up. I really have no reason or rationale why that popped into my head at that particular time, but it was weird.

It also it is amazing how much missing her hurts at times. Sometimes it just takes the wind out of me. It doesn't necessarily last real long and I am usually able to tell myself to get my shit together and it dissappates. It happened this afternoon as I was getting ready to go play Left-Right-Center (LRC) at our community center. Maybe it was her telling me to stay out of her stash of dollar bills from her winning LRC the last time she played at the center. I used her money to play today. Of course I lost it.

Below is her winning photo with the winners crown on.

This weekend is the Mesquite Balloon festival. It is hard to believe that a year ago she was absolutely fine. Jim and Elaine came over for the event and we went to the festival on Friday night to watch the glow event and then again early Saturday morning to watch the balloons getting set up and then taking off. We had a fun time.

Below is a photo of Saturday morning. She was a mitten person and as you can tell she has her hands balled up in this photo. The mittens look funny in this photo and she would be pissed I am posting this photo because of that. Oh well, it wouldn't be the first or last time she would be pissed at me. She liked being able to keep all her fingers warm and mittens did that better than gloves.

Well enough for today, it's hard typing with teary eyes.