Praying For Those With This Disease

I am still on a couple Neuroendocrine Cancer Facebook pages. As I read what many of the people who have this terrible disease are dealing with and the treatment they are going through, it makes me all the more thankful that the cancer took Jennifer quickly.

I am praying for them and so many others that have terminal illnesses. Don't get me wrong I would give all the money in the world to have had her longer, but not with the pain, suffering and lack of quality of life that many of the people who have this condition are dealing with on a daily basis. She would not wanted to have lived like that and I know I certainly would not have done well with seeing her in the condition(s) that many of these people are dealing with.

Yes, I miss her terribly, but I am thankful she is no longer in pain and that she is with the many loved ones that went before her. As I have said and will continue to say. There are many things that are worse than dieing. I was blessed to have her in my life and will always remember her when she was healthy, vibrant and loving.

I did go get my haircut this morning. Thank you Danna! I feel like a human again instead of like a balding Sasquatch. After that I took my truck to the car wash. Last weeks snow storm had really dirtied it up and figured I best take advantage of the warm weather. It was 50 degrees at the ranch this afternoon. Then I took a trip to the cemetery to just see her for a few minutes, before I ran a bunch of shopping errands.

I did get a chuckle as a I was leaving the cemetery. I got a text from a family member (names are being withheld to protect the guilty) saying to check my MT Sub-Standard (Butte Newspaper) subscription, because theirs had doubled. The reason this made me chuckle is that this was a issue that had driven Jennifer absolutely nuts. The guilty party had been getting a subscription that was lower than the one Jennifer and I were paying. Jennifer had made numerous calls trying to get the same rate, and while she got it lowered some, she had not been able to match the price they were getting. So I told the guilty party that Jennifer was up there smiling and saying it's about damn time! I mean it really drove her nuts, she was competitive when she wanted to be and when it came to shopping type issues she really hated to be paying more than someone else (a trait from her father). So it made me chuckle and I could see her face with her innocent shit eating grin on it.

Anyway, I had a nice little visit with her. I know I won't go out there ever time I am in town, but I will stop occasionally. I have my daily chats with her and I don't need to see the stone to do that, but it is nice to check on her occasionally. She (actually it was closer to her Mom and Dad) is getting someone new in the neighborhood, a crew was there digging the hole for a new grave. So someone else is not going to be having a happy holidays, I did say a little prayer for whomever it is.

Well enough therapy for today.