Life Is Just Not Fair

Yesterday I just did not feel like writing. I thought about it a couple of times, but i just could not muster up the ambition to write. It was another busy day. I played Bocce in the morning. My team won two of three games. We even came back from being down 10-3 to win the last game.

Then I went to the noon Rotary Club and presented a mobile application called "Band" to them. Our sunrise club has been using the application to help plan, organize and communicate on club activities. The club gave me a copy of their cookbook for speaking.

After the meeting I went to our Rotary room and worked on putting together the story boards for our Story Walk event on Saturday. I ended up bringing those home with me and got them put together last evening.

I went to bed last night, thinking that I could sleep in because I had a calendar that was blank. Well wouldn't you know it, I woke up at about 3:00 to use the restroom and just could not get back to sleep.

I started feeling sorry for myself and then I started reflecting on how many people in this world have it much worse than I do. I started thinking about a family in Butte that lost their first child and grandchild just weeks before it was to be born. I started thinking about the innocent people who have been killed in the Israel - Palestinian war or who are suffering just trying to stay alive in this war.

Life is just not fair. The fact of the matter is all of us are going to get a turn in this barrel. Right now it's my turn and to be completely honest I am getting off lite, when I put it into perspective. Don't get me wrong it hurts like hell and I miss her terribly. However, I had 34 great years with her. She was my everything, she loved me unconditionally and put up with my bull shit, laughed at my strange sense of humor. She was my absolute best friend, my lover, my rock.

However she left me in a good place. I have a roof over my head, food in my pantry, and cash in my pocket. So I should be rejoicing and not feeling sorry for myself. Especially when so many in this world don't have a roof over their head, don't know if they are ever going to see another meal or the light of another day and are living in poverty.

I do know if Jennifer was with us today, she would be happy to see the results of yesterday's Ohio elections. Jennifer was very much Pro-Choice and did not feel that politicians should be controlling Womens reproductive rights. That did not mean she would choose to have a abortion if she was ever faced with that situation, but she felt strongly that it should be the individual woman's choice and that the government should stay out of that decision. We had friends that worked tirelessly on the Ohio issue and I am happy as she would have been to see that their efforts were successful.

If there was ever a wall that needs to be built or strengthened it is the wall between the church and the state. I don't care what religious faith or belief you follow or if you don't follow one at all, it does not belong in our government.

Well enough on my political soap box. I am going to go and sit on my patio with my coffee and soak in some morning sun and embrace the day.