Different Kinds/Ways Of Missing

It is amazing to me the different kinds/ways (for the lack of a better words) of missing Jennifer that I experience on a daily basis.

It is hard to explain, but one thing they all have in common is that they all hurt. Some may not hurt as much as others, but they all hurt. It is also weird how they come and go and when they come.

One thing Jennifer loved was my Mom and Dad’s neighbor Ellen Schrable’s Molasses cookies. They would bring a big plate of these cookies down at the holidays. Jennifer would literally squirrel these cookies away and even hide some so she could have them. Sadly Ellen is suffering from Alzheimer’s and is no longer able to cook. However Bernie and Ellen’s daughter Laura and her husband moved her several years ago to help take care of them. Well they came down for a visit the other day and Laura brought a plate of molasses cookies. They were delicious.

We all had a good laugh about how Jennifer would hide the cookies.

As I have mentioned before, some of the hardest times are when I am driving by myself. I will get flashbacks of past trips, discussions, disagreements, or even flash backs of her final departure. Sometimes they just take my breath away, sometimes they will make me smile/chuckle but it is a painful smile/chuckle (if that makes any sense). I hate the final departure ones, that one just takes the breath right out of me and gets my eyes watering.

Anyway, it just is amazing that I am quickly approaching two years without her, and these events are getting more vivid.

I have noted that Jennifer loves college football in the later part of her life. She really did not care about NFL football. However there was one NFL player that she absolutely hated. That was Aaron Rodger’s. She would be so pissed/disappointed about him signing with the Pittsburgh Steelers. Her hate for him came after the bull shit he pulled during COVID. She thought he was a low life wacko piece of shit. I am in the same boat, the guy is a piece of shit and I hate to see him dirtying a Steelers Uniform. Maybe he will flame out like he did with the Jets.

Well enough of my bitching, I better get a move on and do something productive.